how have u been?

this past month had its ups n down n den ups n downs.

1st of all, i made it to F1!! after so many years of watchin it on tv, i finally made it :D a reli awesome experience with reli fast cars n loud loud vrooms vrooms :D red bull dominated sepang d finish was cool but cocky. it was d 1st time i saw DAT many ppl at one place. like literally packed. it took more than an hour for the place to clear after the race. oh it was reli cheap too! advantages of being a student :D RM150 only for the ticks eh. plus we had reli good seats :)

next was college enrollment. that time was reli a struggle..with popo being avidly admitted to the hospital, it was like reli hard for me to actually decide on goin abroad to study. cos i wont wanna leave cos the doc said "time was almost up". so practically those few weeks, our family spent lotsa time back home at popo's.

then 1st of may came. it was lk any normal day when we got a call to go to the hosp. when i arrived, it was too late. popo left us dy. as everyone had expected it to happen, it was a lil easier cos dad unc-s n aunts had prepared everything for the funeral n mentally too. it was still hard tho.

popo's funeral was diff than than the other funerals i've been to even grandpa's funeral at mum's side was totally diff. popo's funeral was somewhat cheerful. knowing that popo enjoyed watching us all gather back home n play, we actually did. the funeral was not like the "scary" ones ud expect to see on tv. through out the whole thing, everyone played n mingled around. of cos with limits. oh ya, popo loved flowers so we had lots n lots of flowers around n she loved burgers too. so we went to find her a vegetarian burger as an offering durin "meals" lol

another thing that made the funeral a memorable one was that almost everyone was back. only a cous who reli cudn make it din make it for d funeral. those cous who were lost in contact for years came back too. at first we cous were a lil shy to mingle but during the final night, a few of us cousins decided not too sleep to spend the last few hours with popo b4 the burial. so during dat time, we caught up with lost times. which was good. sad case tho that we only managed to mingle during the last few hours.

the funeral lasted 4 days. a day extra cos popo left us late in the evening on 1st may n we all wanted to spend a lil more time with her. n surprisingly, during those days, alms collected were way more than wad we actually expected. wad i learned from popo was if dat if u are nice n humble, ppl will remember u. n alot of ppl did! neighbours from everywher came to pay their last respects n helped out.

the last day, was reli tough. as soon as the coffin arrived, everyone broke down. it was the hardest few hours i've ever been thru. yet, everyone was supportive with each other. a few of us cousins created a closer bond during d funeral n everyone grew closer. oh yes, d funeral was reli taxing one me. health wise. i lost my appetite to eat, got my 1st gastric (i think), cudn sleep n was down with flu. i think i slept less than 10 hours for dat 4 days. now, i have to readjust my sleep time bac to "normal" which is a reli2 hard thing to do.

so after popo's passing, i decided it was a right time to go abroad as i cud finally leave kch without worrying bout popo. i've enrolled for sch n will be leaving at the end of the month. so here i am with less than 3 weeks to spend my time with my frens b4 i come back again.

us all..not all la..but most of us :)

popo with her flowers

my fam

a few of us cous

somehow, i felt that popo decided to leave at the right time. when we all sat n talked. none of our plans were interfered with the 7 days n such "traditions" n that it was a time when everyone could come back. popo, u will always remain in our hearts. even right now, i cud not bliv she's gone. cos she has always been ther. reminiscing the times with popo breaks me down easily. if u knew wad kind of person she was, ud know how we felt. she's seriously the nicest person i know. i dun think ther wud be anyone who would be as nice as she was. that part of her made her passing reli hard.

however, we've gotta accept the fact that she has left us. i love u popo. =(