second thoughts

this week was a slack. not the good week i had expected. pretty much just like dat. haihh

ian got married. on sat. bout time he got married too hahahaha pretty different this time as there was no wedding dinner but lunch. a good idea tho but it seems to be quite redundant to have it during lunch. its kinda too bright?? lol plus almost everyone was in casuals. hardly any formals. not the thing id like for my wedding haha then again, its okay lahh...food was okay too. besides that, nth much to say bout the wedding. haha!!

today was a dissapointment, really big one. kinda bad way to start the day too. im not angry, just dissapointed. i had planned something but it seems im having second thoughts. i know, u may ask, y bother to be dissapointed or even care, when there's actually nothing goin on. but i just am. n sorry, im not over it. its hard not to think bout it. as open as i may be, that thing was just hard. i hope u get to read this.

im nice ba.... haihh...its just sucks when such things happen..n i hope it doesn happen again.

please dont ask me wads goin on. id like to keep this just to myself. cant tell no one, so i just needed to write it out. esp adruce haha pls...

if we are, we are..so it is!!

like alan, i have a 5 year plan. a plan of which i wont tell. cos i cant exactly list it out. its purely a sketch in mind of how things are intended/i picture to be in this coming 5 years. i am 20. so i'll roughly be 24++ when things actually come to picture. u will see.... i may have no car. i may have not much money. i may have no house. but in this 5 year plan. im gonna. so im kinda arm-ed and still arming myself to be ready to go all out. u guys will see... things may not work out for me at the moment, but im confident as hell that it is. things are starting to happen. u will see...

if we are, we are. so it is. so dont complain. things that happen has its reasons and form it something will happen. u dun get me? u will see.... i see myself destined for greatness. u will see....

oh ya. im attractively interesting which makes me interestingly attractive hahahaha =) someone said it. not actually said it lah. but it seemed dat way HAHA!!!

hello!!

okay. i just sent my letter of appeal to segi this noon as my moral paper's on the 8th when i'll already be at kl. turns out id most likely to be sitting for my exam after my kl trip?? so its good in a way lahh. eve can provide me tips hahaha yes?? LOL

so i actually planned out my kl trip a week back. on the 5th, i'll be on my way to kl. the weekends at kl and prolly the rest at the beach. alan's interested to go redang but its kinda 7 hours away from kl plus i have nt made any bookings yet.. huhu mayb melaka lahh or penang =)

oh. i watched made of honor earlier. its good. hahaha Michelle Monaghan is my new <3 hahaha she's hot weiiii hahahahahha

i love chick flicks. yes i said it!! hahahhaha

the take-over

Andy Timmons was great tonight!! tagged along with adruce as he had extra tickets for the guitar clinic. nice experience tho. plus it was great to a guitar virtuoso!! had a pic with him of whic i dunno wher to get the pic from haha n got an autograph too!! hahaha

alan's left. kch will be slightly quieter. haih. but then again, im gonna see that bugger in 2 weeks!! ahahaha KL baby!! n there's other to see too. i wont mention names ;)

SADDAD's fusion episode 2 was a blast although there was errors.. poor sound system due to some misunderstanding we had...pftttt...but no more next shows....hopefully!! hahahahha come next week tho, we'll be having a ladies night haha :)

had a last at alan's place on fri nite hahaha u'll see why when i get my hands onthe video hahaha

besides that, i think theres nth else to write bout.

i do have a feeling this week's gonna be great!! huhuhu =D

make it mine

its tuesday, few more days shy to Saddad's Fusion episode 2. everything seems alright expect the pa system lahh. im gonna get to it try lah haihh

mum n dad went to kl last thurs till sun. so i was left the company and my bro n sis to take care off. 3 days acting boss is damn taxing. so many things to do in so little time ehh.. but i managed n im quite impressed and proud with myself AHAHAHHAHAHA

rainfest was up. quite interesting this time. had fun during the show and all and stayed the night at the beach. not because i want to but i had to. i had no choice!! hahaha i lost my damn car keys inside Redha's bag. n redha's bag was stolen dat night huhuhu bloody mistake to leave the car keys in there ehh...lucky i did not leave my wallet or phone with him HAHAHA then again, rainfest was alright lahh. just got into a lil trouble to look for the keys and to find a way back home, WITH THE CAR hahahah so after 12am, when everything finished, instead of hanging out at the beach straight away like everyone else is, i went to look for the keys. i knew it was kinda imposible so i just let it be lah hahaha made sime calls to security to take care of the car and then went to party. so party i did. kinda.hahaha no lah. all i did was hung out, poret, drank a lil, talk then fall asleep feeling very very very cold haha mind u, i was at the beach with nth more than my pants and shirt. no blanket no room no pillow no nothing. well, at least i had the brains to actually "steal" the tilam n sleep on the lazy chair..unlike some ppl who had to end up on the sand asleep and wet HAHAHAHA so i did not reli get a good sleep, kept waking up after awhile till it was 6.30 am when harith asked me to join him to drink HAHAHAHA as much drunk as he is, he asked me to join him summore. hahaha so i did, i din actually drink but hung around for a ciggy HAHAHA den i met some people, wasted a lil time here and there and finally got to borrow adeen's car to go get my spare keys. cos mamal din call and he was suppose to help me get the keys when he's playing golf. apparently, he played golf during noon. i cudnt wait that long. hahahhaa back to the story, i borrowed adeen's car, drove home, got the keys, got my car and drove back. hahahah by then it was 10 smthg2 hahaha ta daaaaa~~~~ my rainfest lol oh ya, i got myself a pretty cool bracelet ehh hahahhaa from rainfest :)

wad rainfest got me into?? isolation. hahahahahaha most of my frens are literally afraid to hang out with me cos ther's a possibility of me having H1N1. wtf ryte?? HAHAHAHAHHA

assignments. are almost done. due tmr. few paragraphs left and a step closer to my diploma and the unneccessary headaches :)

i want a kelisa :) or an old sch pajero :)

today, i wanna talk bout expectations.lol.expectations are wad make us feel unhappy. of cos when we dun get wad we want. so why bother to expect something. or rather to have expectations in general. what ever is, is. if we get it, we do. if we dont, its alright, it wont pinch. so yeah. dun have expectations. im not trying to say not to have it at all but no those of material and u noe wad i mean lah. expectations are actually good, if we have a standard to keep up to. but then again, thats not wad im talking bout. hahaha so yeah....wad ever is, is lah. i dun have huge expectations on many things other than my work. so yeah...i feel rather better lah. or happier than some people i noe. i dun expect so whatever i get im grateful and happy lah hahahaha like dat day!! :) dad bought me smthg. din expect aything but i got smthg. adrian expected smthg, got nthg he wanted. brenda expected smthg, gt smthg else. so yalah. im most happy then lah AHAHAHAHAHHAH :) think bout it

roses really smell like boo boo booooo

im stuck back home on a Sunday noon. was bout to go out when dad HAD to go out. hahaha so i guess i'll blog. i got my bro n sis to clean the car earlier. not exactly clean but to clear out everything. i was planning to send the car for cleaning :) guess it was bout time the car had a cleaning. last i could remember cleaning the car was a month or 2 back??? HAHAHA dirty piece of shit i tell u!! hahah

SADDAD's Fusion was a blast + success last night. although turn up wasn pleasing on fri but it sure was good last night. they say a good gig is when u get the traffic jammed and to have the cops arrive to stop the gig. BOTH happened!! AHAHAHAHHAAHHAHA so i guess it was good?? lol so this SADDAD's Fusion thing will be on every Saturdays after rainfest onwards :) so its a good place for people to sow their talents lah. n yes i have been getting free food for the past few days!! good food summore!! =D so do drop by n tell your friends bout SADDAD's Fusion.

i've been working pretty much lately, i haven't got much time for myself n even my friends. or some of them. it seems with my "hanging out" hours, its rather hard to hang out with 1 or 2 of them. n it seems they are reluctant to do so. effort betch. effort. wher's it????

n no, i have no seen transformers. expensive oi. im saving really hard for my trip to kl. bout that trip, i think im cancelling bali. prolly gonna check out some other beaches lk redang pangkor or langkawi. then again. i still dunno ehh.

till then, ive got assignments. hehhhhh..........

oh yes, i said it

this week seem interesting to me. so far, so good. been feeling a good vibe of good things to happen. n it has been dat way.

so i've been called up to help organize a humble event for SADDAD. things are going quite well. although its kinda last minute. seems that, Uncle Saddad wants this event thing to carry on every week. so i guess its good in many ways lah. it benifits SADDAD court, kuching's music scene and of cos me HAHAHA im back in the game baby!!

studies. i find my moral studies quite interesting. but its taking up too much of my time. making some other things quite impossible. is it possible to take the subject somewhere else n come back n claim my diploma??

rainfest. H1N1 is a bitch. even now, im not too sure of goin. BUT then again, parents are prolly leaving for kl that very weekend. so u noe lahh....im sooooo gona partay!!!

st3's fest is this saturday. dad bought rm50 worth of tickets earlier n gave it to me. of cos lah i took it!! hahaha this prolly had to do with the conversation my dad, aunts and i had during bfast. HAHAHAHA so the scouting begins?? rofl!!!

then again there's assignments to do. although its only moral, i've been waiting to get my book before i start doing any of it.

futsal has been an addiction lately hahahaha i feel healthier by the week =)

i said wad i wanted to n i meant it. there's a time whereby there's obligations we need to follow up to. u understand? life isn't as simple as 123s and abc's. it may feel so dat way, but may it be as such in the future?? we gotta start thinking. of things. bout everything except for wad's holding us back. such things only deserve a small thought. we shud look towards the future. if we dun get wad we want, dont hang around too long. it just aint worth the really long wait. we shud be opportunists!! take every chance we have. i learnt the hard way. i waited for 1 then 2 came by, but i still waited for 1. by the time i wanted 2, everything was gone. since then, i've been taking chances. on pretty much everything. on work mostly. but this goes as well as for almost everything.

do u deserve my time n thoughts? im gonna think otherwise if i dun see changes.

kerinduan.