PANAS!!!

i think this is the hottest kuching has been for since i dunno when. damn.

last saturday, i happened to join my dad to visit my dad's granddad for cheng beng. haven seen the old man or his grave before so i figured i followed. happended to be the only grandchild to do so, just so u know. =) and the dude has been gone for like 50 over years ehh. i actually kinda woke up for the batu kawah kolo mee but din manage to cos they ran out. at 10am!! try imagine how good the mee is!! its dat good, people drive all the way up just to eat it.

then on sunday, i visited my grandad's grave. now this dude has been gone for 20 some years. n when i was at the cemetary, i walked like i owned the place or something. seems kinda peaceful there?? damnn

den on sat night, there was this earth hour thing at Green heights Mall. so i went. short event but damn nice lahh...lotsa ppl dropped by and all...bla bla bla....candles....stickers.....girls.....music.....bands.... n finally agony... felt like crap after the earth hour...i somehow started to mock everything. damn cranky i tell u.

ever felt like u wanna move so bad but when u think bout it, there's so much left back to do. the people and all. i jus cant seem to make up my mind when im thinkin bout this. darn.

havent been lettin my mind wonder much lately. prolly cos of the gradual sleep im gettin lately. im liking it now, but its pretty tiring.

51 hours away till i go away for another week. a week less of dramas, although there's not much lately. a week of time just for me. no frens no car no parents no work no studies. just my time alone. it will get pretty lonely but im up for it. =)

loosing my way

Hey excuse me

Hi my name is Bob and I work at my job
I make forty-some dollars a day
I used to be the man in my hometown
'til I started to lose my way
It all goes back to when I dropped out at school
Having fun, I was living the life
But now I got a problem with that little white rock
See I can put down the pipe

And...

And it's breaking me down
Watching the world spin round
While my dreams fall down
Is anybody out there?

It is breaking me down
No more friend around...
And my dreams fall down...
Is anybody out there?

Can anybody out there hear me?
'Cause I can't seem to hear myself
Can anybody out there see me?
'Cause I can't seem to see myself...
There's gotta be a heaven somewhere
Can you save me from this hell?
Can anybody out there feel me?
'Cause I can't seem to feel myself

Losing my way
Keep losing my way...
Keep losing my way...
Can you help me find my way?
Losing my way
Keep losing my way
Keep losing my way...
Can you help me find my way?

Now you gotta understand I was a family man
I would have gave anything for my own
But I couldn't get a grip on my new found itch
So I ended up all alone
I remember where I was when I got my first buzz
See I thought I was living the life
And the craziest thing is I'll probably never know the color of my daughter's
eyes

And it is breaking me down
Watching the world spin round
While me dreams fall down
Is anybody out there?

It is breaking me down
No more friend around...
And my dreams fall down...
Is anybody out there?

Can anybody out there hear me?
'Cause I can't seem to hear myself
Can anybody out there see me?
'Cause I can't seem to see myself
There's gotta be a heaven somewhere
Can you save me from this hell?
Can anybody out there feel me?
'Cause I can't seem to feel myself.

Losing my way
Keep losing my way
Keep losing my way
Can you help find my way?
Losing my way
Keep losing my way
Keep losing my way
Can you help me find my way?

Oh my god please forgive me (father hear my pray)
'Cause I know I've done some wrong in this life
If I could do it all again
Have just one more chance
To take all those wrongs and make them right

Can anybody out there hear me?
'Cause I can't seem to hear myself
Can anybody out there see me?
'Cause I can't seem to see myself
There's gotta be a heaven somewhere
Can you save me from this hell
Can anybody out there feel me?
'Cause I can't seem to feel myself.

Can anybody out there hear me?
'Cause I can't seem to hear myself
Can anybody out there see me?
'Cause I can't seem to see myself
There's gotta be a heaven somewhere
Can you save me from this hell
Can anybody out there feel me?
'Cause I can't seem to feel myself

Losing my way
Keep losing my way
Keep losing my way
Can you help me find my way?
Losing my way
Keep losing my way
Keep losing my way

its a wonder what info we can find out using the I.P. address...

HAH!!

at times, we think we understand; but we sure as hell dont. and yeah, i cant figure u out. all i know is that a word describes u best. FAKE.

11 DAYS AND COUNTING!!.... =)

Aaron needs more time

it has been a week now since i started helping my dad at his workshop....doing chores, driving up and down, meeting people, learning a lil bit of this and that....so its actually kinda good, since its making me sleep and wake up early....and eating properly too....

im almost done with my assignments...company law has been a bitch to do. i kinda over did it n had to redo the whole thing again...darnn....plus production management is a total blur to me. i know 0 bout it! 0!!!

with work n assignments keeping me busy till 5pm, id sleep for awhile after and then hang out wif my friends till 12 or so...after that, im back home to sleep n then id repeat the same thing again. is this how working life feels like? its wad i wanted but it damn tiring....

plus, i barely seem to have enough time my other friends or myself!! i cant seem to find time for ME!! i dun go online as much anymore...even if it is, its just a while....oh bali....i cant wait no longer...

i need 30 hours or mayb a lil more per day....

wads worst is that when i pooped just now, i pooped a lil extra....my shit came with blood. =S is that bad or something? or i just need more water?? crap....

?????

do u realize people hardly say goodbye in phone convos anymore? esp the convos between close friends and family. then it becomes a habit and then to almost everyone, we dont say goodbye.

do u realize songs we dun like listening to, or those we mock, we somehow end up liking them?

have u felt like going out so badly when ur at home and once ur out, u just feel lk goin home?

have u felt so tired/sleepy when ur out, n when ur home, u just cant seem to sleep/rest?

do u feel that when u have something fun (new/old), u are very fond of it, and cant leave home without it or cant stop thinking bout it. n when a period of time goes by, it gets boring and u just leave it aside, n not "layan" it at all? same thing goes to songs, people, or simply everything

have u ever have a passion or interest for something, that u work very hard for or with and then one day, u just loose total interest in it?

have u ever felt so annoyed/angry/negative at someone, but when u see them or talk to them just for a lil while, u would just forget the negativity?

have u ever thought wad is, isnt and wad isnt, is??

have u ever felt u grow up just too slow?

i was randomly checking out profiles in facebook till i came upon one that struck me up the ass. i had a look at the friends he had, and all i could see was fakes/immature-s. the dude himself seems like one too. i reli dunno wad to say but just feel disgusted on the way they talk to each other and give each other nicknames. wads worst is that i see that dude in college with his bunch of frens. no, i do not hate him. im just disgusted. with his frens too. damn. wad made it even worst was that one of my fren is in their so called "gang" or simply just their group of frens. a smile they fake, converse in ways that make me feel disgusted, overdress, are immature and yet try to be grown ups. ewwww. i feel like somehow "saving" my fren but wtv lah. im over that period of being too nice and cheesy.

i dunnolah....ppl may think the same way bout me. but i dun bother. this is my thought tho.

my fren, u might noe who u are if u reli think hard.....

HAHA

Sky... =)

Sky (feat. Ingrid Michaelson) - Joshua Radin

I woke
Dreaming we had broke
Dreaming you left me
For someone new

And you cried
Drying those brown eyes
Crying you're sorry
Sorry won't do, but...

This is the way I need to wake
I wake to you
And you never left me
All that I'd dreamt had been untrue
Open my eyes
I see sky

Oh, oh, oh woah, you know
The way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine
Just say you'll stay forever mine
Till we fall asleep tonight

Last night
We had a great fight
I fell asleep in a horrible state
Then dreamt
That you loved my best friend
My heart would not mend
Seemed it was fake, but

This is the way I need to wake
I wake to you
And you never left me
All that I'd dreamt had been untrue
Open my eyes
I see sky

Oh, oh, oh woah, you know
The way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine
Just say you'll stay forever mine
'Til we fall asleep tonight

Sometimes I forget to
Love you like I should
But I'd never leave you
No, I never would
I never would

Oh, oh, oh woah, you know
The way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine
Just say you'll stay forever mine

Oh, oh, oh woah, you know
The way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine
Just say you'll stay forever mine
'Til we fall asleep tonight
'Til we fall asleep tonight

for those who actually reads my shit

i've been sleeping aroun 6am for the past few days....since tues to be exact...due to my assignments....well just assignment...malaysian studies....its long but i've been writing a few hundred words when im up....i seem to tend to wonder off watching videos and chatting.

its the month of march now. a month more of dramas and disappointment before i escape for a week once again. so far, im hinting alot of things. and thinking too. mostly why, when and how questions. who without the doubt is about a few people. honestly, im not liking any of this hints. cos usually when i hint, im right!! it just works that way.

for those who actually read this blog, i may have no idea who u actually are. but yeah, i appreciate it. this dude typing this all down is going through quite a rough time. and im sorry for typing all over the place. its just the way i blog.

i take actions damn slow at things cos im no good at it but anything else, im pretty darn good. i work hard and all, dont count in the procrastination lahh...hahhaha but some things dun go my way. pretty much everything else does. prolly its just kuching ehh?? been hanging around here just too long.

"Everyone sees what u seem to be, but few know who or what u really are" >> u noe onot??? this is wad expresses me best, now and ever. be it everyone i know or even close ones around me. how well do they know me? my parents, my besties, my siblings, my frens. i figure none know me as i really am. some may understand but dont really know. thats y i give people the benifit of the doubt and all. a thing everyone should do but a mistake to do. besides that, id try to understand some people. some i've figure out. but when i do, its just too late.

sometimes u dunno wher u stand anymore. or u wont know how people see u from their eyes or how they'd react/respond to u. and from that, wad used to be, is not anymore. this goes to everyone i relate to.

oh, did u know how much it sucks when an effort is turned down even before it is made or done?

some say but dont do. think hard. it mayb just u im talking about. im talking bout a few people right now.

im just dissapointed....in everything....and in y.o.u.!!!

cant u all just tell me and spare me the thought n dissapointment?