kuching so far

i finally got my hands on constant internet access after 2 whole freaking months without it, depriving this sad outdated blog. boo hoo... 

so far...its 5.18. it has been even 9 hours since i got back from kd. honestly, i feel lk goin back to kd at this very instant. why? apparently, during my brief time here, i have already found out things that i deem sad to me. my normal group of friends do not hang out as often as they do. i've also heard stories of 2 aqquaintances being involved in stupid accidents and the passing of another friend. hearing things like these were not what i expected to come by during my time here. i  had always thought that kuching would remain the same as i left it but it seems, that during my time away, although it has only been few months, things has drastically changed. then it struck me. people change. for better or worst, now i dun give shit. funny thing is, those i thought would stick around for a long(er) time, apparently DID NOT! and its sad to find out that from a large group of friends of whom we normally hang out everyday with, we're ended up 3! 3! wtf-ish. big time!!

im being honest to say that im rather disappointed (already) with my trip here. and im glad its brief. i cant wait to return to kd to the people who means most to me at the moment. friends who i call my family. im glad to feel that i have already settled down with my friends at kd. and i cant get enough of them. making a foreign place home to me. talking bout being at home. i felt totally different driving back home earlier. having felt a "different feeling" compared to what i felt driving home before. i dont feel the urge to hang out more having found out what happened. but by saying all i have just said, im sure as hell hope i do not turn into those hypocritical bastards that made my night unpleasant, just by listening to updates on them. again, wtf-ish. big time!!

ending this sadist post. goodnight, i hope to see those i expect to see, have a good time here and try finish my assignments while im here. efff!!!! :((