today was shitty. stayed at home. got out to nowhere n got back. bloody boring.

we're worried cos we care. dun u think so? so yeah...

screw the weekends.

nothing's the same. if everything was to be the same, why do we make choices?

ash2.

its 5.30 now, i just got back watching man utd being out classed by barcelona. hehh....n i come home to have my mum telling me i shud stop goin till late.

dad told me to come back home earlier. i kinda did. i came home early. early in the morning.

i missed my parents anniversary just now. felt awfully bad that i did. i forgot eh. kimenn

commitments.

im drained. n lately, i get annoyed easily. although i find myself very patient, it just gets me sometimes. mostly these days. my patience has caused me lots. like LOTS!!

mal's on my couch now. HAHAHA apparently we were suppose to be somewher else. somehow, it didn't happen. abu2. frustrated i am.

i dun get u. ur hard to understand. im frustrated. n tired. =(

y cant we all just be frank? kimen.

im off now. my heads sliding sidewards, n i feel upside down. nights.

im translucent

things got cleared today. n im glad it did. anymore of it, we'd noe wad to do now. =)

then again, i believe im translucent. others just aint. im tired. reli. i reli do need a break. not dat im not having one now. but a break away. a break indefinitely. all i wish i just had the cash to do so. but ther's things i cant let go. my family. my dad especially.

wads it like living a life of lies n bluff? i've been honest much. we'll see..

im tired...

Game Over??

BON-JUER!! HAHA

so Qidah's back today. betch!! hahahaha n i got new boxers =) HOHOHO ones lol

nth much happened today. felt lk shit pretty much during the evening cos i felt lk vomiting. but i held it in n yeah. i still feel lk crap.

things kinda got cleared today. atleast it KINDA got cleared. but it got messed up in my head after. i cant think of proper possibilities. i cant tell wads wad. GILA. its playing in my head now. bout wad to do, n wad to say, n wad to feel. imma try clear things up a lil tmr. n we'll see how it goes =)

Game Over? i hope so but guess not. see how its playing wif my head? HAHA pulling strings are not an option anymore.

lk i said, we all seem to focus bout the people around us but at the end of the day, it all just bout us.

dunno lah. im clueless edi.

do u noe the "u noe i noe" kinda thing? it happens in such a way that u noe, i noe, but when somebody asks, i'll speak the truth, just not the whole truth, not the "u noe i noe" truth. just becos its just foe u to noe. n me of cos. then becos of this, things happen lah. u noe?? haha

u spin my head right round, right round...........

AU REVOIR!! haha

The Audition

yes, the audition. im currently making a play, or running one. i'll see who gets to play who =) u may start playing the role u want now, but do remember, ppl dun always get the roles they want. HAHA

we all seem to think and act for the best for the people, or rather, our friends. but somehow, it always ends up acting for the best for ourselves. dun u think so?

palm pre. i want it. my iphone killer. makes iphone look like a phone without the i hahahaha
sad thing is, i need to save. and the money i save are already for my trips. so if ur nice, u noe lah =)

nth much for tonight. so who do u wanna play in this year's summer drama?? ;)

jupiter rising baby....check these songs out!! huhu

bloody hell

today was all bout eddie murphy. watched 4 of his movies just to kill my time. im dat bored...

so we hung out at Tropicana today, had a lil to drink and almost choked myself. damn HAHAHAHA den we dropped by soho n i got to meet steph!! been ages since i saw her n yet we both stay in kch hahaha n yes, im proud of my short hair =))))))

when we're drunk, personalities changes, we somehow get braver (cos we dun think twice or wont) hahaha so we say or do things we think without consideration. personality tweak i call it. so jaga-jaga abit lahh.... mistakes are easily spotted by those who dun reli drink hahaha like me HOHOHO!!!

wad u think isn't wad u think it is. u might think i dunno, but i do ;) i'll just continue putting on my poker face. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA POKER FACE!! LMAO!!

n Qidah, the past are memories; memories of which we remember and treasure; of which is hard to let go, memories of which are not wrong to keep; of which we can use to improve ourselves; of which we think bout everyday. but remember, the memories are the past. n time doesn't tick backwards. there's still alot to look forward to. so, chill k, Miss Kakya Tek??!!! =D

my daddy loves me hahahahahahha

n finally, i need to get a new phone. like seriously now. =S

kakya tek?? hahahahhahahahahahhaha

y did u have to go? boring eh.

today's friday, im bored. guys wanna play futsal later but i dun feel like it cos its futsal. im just bored. reli bored.

qidah's not in town, she's in miri. mal is hard to find. tsk3. the rest are available but i just dunno. im blur. today din feel like yday. cos it wasnt yday lah!! ahaahahha gai.

yday, i had a brief moment of wildness towards the end of the night. having to see and to know just a lil more puts me in a hard place. wadddaaafuckkkkkk....

niq's got 2 words for u...BE CAREFUL!!!!

godeng's got 2 words for u.....ABIT TERUT!!!!!

qidah's got a laugh for u......HOHOHO!!!!

get the picture???

i've got a smirk for u ;)

oh, my blog just got a lil popular... HUHU!! =D

life is scandalous ;)

apparently i "jogged" today. more like walk. hahaha eh, i dun need the exercise bah HAHAHAHAHA

so it was kinda dull lah today. seriously. thoughts keep getting on my nerves + frustration. dont u ever learn? or is it prolly just u?

today, i learned that things dont happen 1 way. it takes 2 to have something happen or going on. drama shit i tell u eh. n the way i see things are going, i dun like it much at all. but nth i can do bout it. sighhh...

are u just naive, plain dumb or do u just not care?. i think i noe wads happening. horny shit? someone has not been getting pussy for a long time. meow!!~~~ i assume so lah.. consequences baby...consequences..... its u im talking bout not who ur thinking im talking bout. too much info? fine with me =)

there's a massive bomb set to explode, not knowing when it will, only time would tell. oh when or would a defuser come into play to do his/her part?? time is wad disperses us..

sca-sca-sca-scandalous.... ;)

i have no title for this post.

my holidays are killing me. im feeling much more useless day after day. for the past week i have been kinda slacking. haven been doing much lately other than hanging out n hanging out. i see my parents like 5 mins a day. and i havent reli seen my grandma since she has been back for NZ. i noe what im up to, which is no good but im gonna do it again tmr. haihh...i reli need something to fill my time. prolly in june i'll start working =)

for the last 2 days, me mal n qdah has been hanging out mostly roaming around in the car. i think the distance we drove around could prolly allow us to reach KK or something.

words for today are...hmmmm.....sincerity, loyalty, lame and "was it purely just fun?" hahahahhaha

oh...i found out i enjoy massaging feet hahahaha dunno y but my hands need to work i guess LOL

n qdah asked for me to write something bout her. qdah is a princess =)




not!!! hahahahahahahhahahahaha =P

megalomaniac

as of a few hours ago, im tired of kch. tired of the ppl living here especially. somehow, i cant seem to understand how ppl can be such an ass, not that they realize that they are. but if i think that ur an ass, u are one. =) u want names? choi lu lah!!! hahahahhaha

weekends...

i wonder who reads my shit i write here. if my posts are read for who it written bout or if my thoughts are put into thought?? hahaha

people look forward to weekends but i find nth to look forward to during sat n suns. or fri nights. turns out my weekends are less happening compared to my weekdays. id most prolly be staying at home doin nth or out with frens doing some boring shit.

holidays sucks. make me lazier than ever.

why is it that people discriminate? even i do. discrimination in the sense of choosing who to talk, chat or hang out with. it kinda sucks ehh...... everyone discriminates. making a choice is already discrimination.

expectation's complications.....

wtf!!!!! angel n demons......more like angel go suck demon's balls. the book is far by more interesting than the movie.....rather disappointed in the movie....it all seemed cramped in to a short span of 2 hours....n many details was left out. although i expected it to be toned down like davinci code, i din expected it to leave out so many info. was kinda dissapointed but it was actually a good effort to put the book into the movie. 6/10???

my flint went missing tonight. somehow, there was no spark to light the flame. kimen!! n now i dunno wad to do bout it.

i am easy to hang out with.

id hang out at anytime with my frens

im smart and cunning

i have my boundries of rights and wrongs

my way of thinkin bothers some people

i question myself anything.

i am noe alot. bout things, facts, people

im good at reading minds

i wait for the right time

i keep secrets well

i dun bother questioning something i already know

i am shy yet daring

i am observant

i dun have a religion cos i question religion's credibility

i suck at small talk

i care of people's feelings

i noe its not right but some things i do

i mock people

i have high expectations

i am a procrastinator

i am a hypocrite

i am lazy

i am in denial, we all are..

i am a fabricator

i am willing to sacrifice

i am patient. very.

i rather do to things face to face

i prefer text to calls

i prefer hang out to texts

i can tell if ur lying, but i wont ask.

i respect people's decisions

i give a stare

im obvious if i dislike u

i try to be as frank as possible

yet i take care of people's feelings

i can take a joke

i can take an insult

i will remember ur insult and joke

i can tell how ur feeling but i wont act

i respect traditions

i try to be as humble as possible

i treasure friendship

i think too much

i am me.

all smiles =)

today today today....

prolly the best this month so far.

exams are done.

holidays starts.

diploma's almost done.

rainfest is nearer.

although im almost as good as broke.

i got a plan.

and finally.

angels and demons =)

cant wait =D

i shud be sleeping.

bloody exhausted.

mentally and physically.

but im just too hyper.

something made my day.

so im excited.

although, since morning.

again...

cant wait. hahaha

wher got can like dat??????? lol

it wont take long for people to tell what kinda a person u are. espcially when ur acting whore-ish haha charms are misleading. 

it will be soon before people start knowing ;)

deceit

hehh....ur full of it..

im observing a drama in production. a few more days would would tell. stay tuned. =)

6 words

production management was a mess....

hung out last night at mimi's, apparently i was actually there to study but ended up just hanging out. crapping till 2. then i got home n cudnt get no sleep.

den i started wondering n i kinda concluded with 7 words. a 6+1 hahah stupid and random but wth hahah

individual, rights, faith, God, discrimination, passion + calculator

calculator was for my exam today hahaha lame i noe -.-

i love u but im not in love with u..

its 3.20 now. in the morning. im supposed to be sleeping or better yet studying for the test on fri. i've just finished watching slumdog millionaire finally. watched i pronounce u chuck n larry earlier today. n im bored. im sleeping downstairs tonight. just because. hahaha =)

compliments/praises. now wad do i feel bout them? if a person compliments u infront of u, it's fake. if u heard it from someone else that another person compliments u, it genuine. we tend to compliment each other quite often. but how true can they be?? people do it so often, i find it kinda fake?? if thats the right word. hmmmmmmm

a fact from rachel ray u shud noe. once a girl has done it with a guy, even so a rondom one, if its good, HAHA, she'll be emotionally attached to him. like super glue. wad say u?? LOL thats wad makes the single girls unavailable. geddit???? they are still attached!! even if she has moved on, she still have a soft spot for the dude. so its risky?? HAHAHAHA rachel ray told me. i din make this up!! lol

fuck that phrase...im sick of it

first it used to be diff in a good kinda way....den everyone starts using it.....den its annoying....

I LOIKE!! 

its annoying and lame edi ehh.....so stop lahhh..pls.

truth or dare?

im bored....lets play truth or dare.. =)