restlessness....let me tell u bout it. i'v been feeling that way for the past 1 week. due to that, i was not in the mood to do almost anything. when im home, i feel lk goin out. n when im out, i feel lk goin home. i have the "thing" of being "in-touch" at all times. but then, when im home and online, there's nth to be in touch with. hence i get bored n watch my videos over and over again. i'd watch a lil den wonder off doing something else and feel lk goin out. then when im out, i feel the need to go online. wtf ryte?? im in a fucked up phase now. everything seems to be wrong and just not right. even the songs i put on play just doesnt sound right.
and why am i restless?? i've been expecting a call. one that would change matters. one that might prolly "set me free" from home and all. one that might just be a start to my working life. haihhh... its been a week now since i've waited..
besides that, there are other reasons to add up to my restlessness. how i wish i could just talk to someone bout it. but when i feel lk talking, my topic leads to no where, or rather "have no ground". so its rather pointless i may say. then again, a person to just talk bout the stuff i wanna talk about would be just nice, to share my probs and all. and why cant i share my probs, when everyone esle seems to be sharing theirs with me?? here and there, i listen and "consult"...telling people wad to do but yet, i just cant seem to tell myself the right things to do...at which i'll just let things be and watch them turn on me and break me apart. sucks ehh... or m i just too shy even to tell my closest friends bout what im goin through. why is it so easy for others to share their thoughts and probs? haihhh.. being me seems so hard at times ehh... and i wonder bout others.. how they feel bout themselves. yes, there might be people offering their ears to my crap but then, i tend to choose who to talk to.. wtf rtye.... then again, hear me out. someone. haihhhhhh...
i do wonder...y does it seem so easy for people to not bother bout things n just do stuff...dun they care bout the little2 things? dun they care bout how other people feel?? dun they care at all?? its the little2 things that matters ehh...or does everyone i think about feels the way i do and just let things be and then "it just happened". get wad i mean?? how can things "just happen"? things dun just happen....we gotta think before things actually happen.
i wonder if there's another out there who feels and thinks just like me. hello??
there's a question mark behind my smile u see
and why am i restless?? i've been expecting a call. one that would change matters. one that might prolly "set me free" from home and all. one that might just be a start to my working life. haihhh... its been a week now since i've waited..
besides that, there are other reasons to add up to my restlessness. how i wish i could just talk to someone bout it. but when i feel lk talking, my topic leads to no where, or rather "have no ground". so its rather pointless i may say. then again, a person to just talk bout the stuff i wanna talk about would be just nice, to share my probs and all. and why cant i share my probs, when everyone esle seems to be sharing theirs with me?? here and there, i listen and "consult"...telling people wad to do but yet, i just cant seem to tell myself the right things to do...at which i'll just let things be and watch them turn on me and break me apart. sucks ehh... or m i just too shy even to tell my closest friends bout what im goin through. why is it so easy for others to share their thoughts and probs? haihhh.. being me seems so hard at times ehh... and i wonder bout others.. how they feel bout themselves. yes, there might be people offering their ears to my crap but then, i tend to choose who to talk to.. wtf rtye.... then again, hear me out. someone. haihhhhhh...
i do wonder...y does it seem so easy for people to not bother bout things n just do stuff...dun they care bout the little2 things? dun they care bout how other people feel?? dun they care at all?? its the little2 things that matters ehh...or does everyone i think about feels the way i do and just let things be and then "it just happened". get wad i mean?? how can things "just happen"? things dun just happen....we gotta think before things actually happen.
i wonder if there's another out there who feels and thinks just like me. hello??
there's a question mark behind my smile u see
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