Merderka night!

darn....merdeka night screws up plans for a saturday night...imagine the traffic n the havoc!!!

fuck!!

merdeka my foot!! aahahahahahhahahah

everywhere is a no no to go tonight..jus stay at home and listen to afroman =D

Say colt 45 and 2 zig-zags baby thats all we need we can go to the park after dark, smoke that tumbleweed, as the marijana burn(s) we can take our turn singing them dirty rap songs, stop and hit the bong like Cheech and Chong and sell tapes from here to hongkong. So roll roll roll my joint pick out the seeds and stems
feelin high as hell flyin' through Palmdale.....


hahahahahah


but i think im still going out hahahahha to create more havoc...fuck!! hahahah

another sleepless night and rants!! hahahah

look in the mirror, ud see urself...look hard enough, ud still see urself.....eyes closed, ud see darkness. stay long enough infront of the mirror, u'd feel lk a fool. hahahahhaahha what possible ways are they to see ur inner self???

i noe one....lay down in total drakness n jus let ur thoughts wonder...lol

i wonder how another person would feel if i did what i wanted to based on what i whought and felt. would they react as how i expect them to react or could it be jus the total opposite. ThoughtS wonderS

this was wad i was thinkin bout. i would feel that i may have taken advantage or taken a person for granted if i did what i wanted to do. would the person feel the way i may feel, of which i think is not nice if i had acted. im tryng my best, i'll do my best, i'll act another way, but would it all matter?, would the person fell the way i feel or am i just thinkin too much. i end up letting myself wonder, judging myself, thinkin of shouldS n shouldnS. being scared means having something to loose. to think bout it. it sounds damn true. who on earth isnt scared?? who on earth does not have anything to loose? thus, to do something or not to. all i wanna know is which weighs the other out?

blah blah blah..........

all this blahs clouds the rationality in me....wears me out....i need my sleep




was suppose to post this few days bac....me lazy to type n is restless...pluss its good i waited before i acted....if not...outcome could have been disastrous lmao!!! mayb thinkin too much is kinda good..........

or not??....help me out here......lol

so far???

1st my result are out....got a C n a B...not too bad since i studied last minute n sat in the exam hall for roughly 1 hour for each papers hahahahhaha as long i need not resit the subjs hahahahha

2nd, mum n dad found out bout my tattoo...they din say much but did gave a weird look asking funny questions lk is it permanent??? den after dat...does it stay forever???....its permanent lahh!! hahahahha

3rd...i think i gotta touch up the tattoo after my hand heals...the wound bled cos i slept n made some parts of the tattoo lighter in color hahaha

4th, merdeka's soon....nth much to say bout it hahaha

5th, i wanna go travel!!! i miss backpacking!!! grrr

6th, nth edi!! hahahah bye!!! n take care!! hahaha XOXO??? LMAO!!!!!

So far since Sunday..

nth much really happened since sunday although Lee Chong Wei is gonna be given a datuk-ship sometime soon......stupid lah.....come bac wif a bloody olympic medal n become a datuk....not gold summore....and at 25? doesnt sound creditable to me....wad if the 18 year old diver dude fom sarawak got gold??? give him the bloody title as well lah hahahahahahah

besides that, my bday happened on tuesday....thks u guys for the gifts, cakes, for hanging out and most of all for not egging me!!! hahahahha

my tattoo's started healing not too long ago...i saw a lil blood today tho but i sure hope its nth hahaha

dats all lah....n im living in dreamland lately. lol due to extensive sleeping....hahahahha

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saturday was a day of mine to remember =D was really excited bout wad i was up to....to get my tattoo!!!

alf fetched me n headed off to Unique Arts to get my tattoo done. took slightly more than an hour to do n im pleased with it!! haha no seafood tho for a week hahaha the thing bout getting a tattoo is that my parents dun hav a single clue bout it hahah i asked my dad several times if i could get one n he said no. now i dun care. get one den tell him hahahahahha




















zreya aka confidence in tibet. its a tibetan calligraphy..dats y it looks as it it has brush stokes =D look sideways, u'll see numbers hahaha 6, 3, 2, 8....wad u waitin for??? go try ur luck on 4d!! ahahha

after gettin the tattoo, mal alf n i went aroun getting ready for the bbq. everything was so last minute. we only started buying meat around 6 something n marinated the meat around 8 plus. after buying food any all, we stopped by alf's place to set the fire while i cleaned up. mal alf n i den left godeng n mamat to get things done while we went to pick lane. after fetching her, we bought some other stuff n headed bac where i marinated the lamb, the chicken n made a bbq gravy. hahaha i cook u noe!! hahaha everything was so last minute but was one of the best bbq i ever had hahaha

after bbq was sessions of fooling around n laughing our asses off. *cut cut cut....and lastly everything had to end as lane had curfew at 12. so we sent her bac n got bac to watch harold n kumar of which ended up watching us hahahaha

antireligion

atheism

check those 2 words out in wikipeida hahaha

3 hrs n counting??? n another 3 days n counting!! hahahaha

1 week and counting!! hahaha

im confused....???

what i tend to do when im lying in bed trying to sleep is think. at the end of the night, i end up not having sleep at all cos thoughts, idea and macam-macam leads from one to another. i think of almost everything, what i wanna be, what i wanna do, where i wanna go, what i wanna buy, how am i gonna make money, what i think of myself, what i should not do, what i think of other people, their actions, what they say, stupid ideas, quotes and their meanings, u get the point? haha sounds cheesy and corny but i dun care. wait till u read the rest hahahaha

i think i think too much till i made my mirror a goal board of things i intend to buy, places i want to go at a specific time and things i want to do. i dunno why but it makes me fell as though iv gone nuts...somehow..... hahahahah

id come up with theories of ways to obtain something which u want, a goal, dream or whatever u want to call it. i just realized that its my reason to procrastinate hahaha any huss, this is wad i got.
>dreams, goals one way or another are things we intend to have or achieve. thus, when we do something to do achieve a dream or goal, we have intentions. from the way i see it, having intentions when when doing something makes it harder to obtain the goal. its lk everything seems to back fire and not turn up the way we'd want it to be if we have intentions. then again, when we'd do something with no intentions such as doing something sincerely, we'd realize, the goal or what we initially intended, somehow indirectly would be a step closer. simply lk just helping a someone sincerely, just relaxing when we are under pressure or mayb just to let things be and not to try too hard. get what i mean? makes sense? hahahahh its kinda like a reverse psycho thingy hahahha

other den coming up wif weird theories, id sometimes remind myself that life isnt jus bout being bold, but acceptance. that way, we shud try to treasure what i already have n try not to ask for more and to helps me be a lil more optimistic. i feel putting a smile every time keeps thing happy. there wouldn be a point o be miserable, to be sad, to whine bout something cos all it does is just makes ourselves even more miserable. i also believe that being and staying positive at all times attracts other positive things too which continues to make the world a better place. and being negative gives the negative effect. is it logical? or am i jus thinkin too much?

and whats the thing bout people whining bout other people talking behind their back? its pure stupidity. everyone talks behind other people's back. if u said u have not done so u sure as hell is a liar. if u said that u have not talk behind a particular person's back, u sure as hell is a liar. everyone does that, so be it a positive or negative thing to talk about. so why bother bout people talking bout their back? its just talking when ur not present. i think i have an idea y people bother bout people talking bout them. probably becos they worry people revealing and mentioning truly negative things bout them. they don want people to know wads bad bout them, wads weak bout them and so on. what im trying to say is who ask u to be so stupid in the first place to make the mistake? dat somehow gives the reason for the person to be talked about. im sure when people talk without the "subject's" presence, they dont make up stories, all they do is talk bout wads true and then repeat it to several other people. if it reaches the subject, its unnecessary him to whine bout people talking behind his back. y not spend the energy used to whine about and improve on the mistakes and weaknesses once we've known what it is?
whats worst is that they do not admit to their mistakes. grow up lah. people around u not stupid. living in denial makes oneself look stupid.
n whats worst of dat is having grudges of the people talking bout u and what makes it even worst is picking jus a person or a few to put the "blame?" on when everyone is doing what the one's being picked are doing.
what makes it even worst is to do that, and covering an eye over the close peers who talk behind ur back, and jus automatically forgive them. that's stupid.
what makes it even worst is that that person talked behind bout their close peers back! hahhaha
n to top it all is to make up stories of what's not true n tell one person and eventually spreads around.
and whats more stupid n foolish is having read this n still not improve cos this applies to everyone even me!! i talk behind people's back. if u read this, i 've been in a conversation bout talk behind ur back. and somehow, if anyone shud have "terasa" n have a grudge on me cos u read this, i dun mind so, but im telling u, ur a stupid MOFO hahahahahha if no one was to talk behind people's back, i sure as hell guarantee the world gonna be a boring place.

however, having remind myself of what to do and what not, i may tend to be hypocritical, who doesnt?? everyone is hypocritical somehow another by doing something they say they would not do, either intentionally or unintentionally.

then there's the thing to reason or to make sense. is there a need to reason when doing something? is there a need to make sense when doing something? when i do something, it may have no reason. its just to. hahah and even if i do have a reason, it might make no sense. does everything we do have to reason or make sense? i believe a lil something in everything has to make no sense or life would sure be boring hahahahahha

another thing bout being optimistic is so see things in a different way, to laugh n embrace life. makes the world a better place as far as i noe. why feel sad, mad, or angry? doing so makes the situation even more miserable and sad. y not not just think bout something else, keep ur mind off what's bothering u?

im talking too much n i still got more but i should stop or i'll go crazy soon. bye hahaha =D

wait....but then to think that if everyone thought lk me, wudnt it be boring?? no drama goin on hahahahhaha chao...

1st day

one word describes my 1st day of the new sem....BODOH!!!! having classes in the afternoon, i dunno how the hell i ended up at segi before 9! what a waste of time isnt it? hahhaha

night class got cancelled, management accounting's boring...the lecturer's funny tho....weird pronunciation he has...hahahah makes management accounting funny yet though to study at the same time hahaha

any huusss....mal came by at break n i left!! hahahhaha sudnt take segi no more for the day!! hahahaha plus the tiredness of not sleepin last night....was tired then but now im kinda hyper hahaha im typin nonsense bye.... hahahahah