a new perspective

its wednesday now. few days have since kl n everything seems to be goin slow. sighh

had a meeting earlier this morning which kinda piled up my "to-do" tasks. lotsa work, lotsa time, no car, bad weather, no motivation. i've been running lack of self-motivation to get things done. cos chances and opportunities are there. bt it seems blur cos there's no proper guideline or guidance on wad to do exactly. all there is, is a picture of what to be done. sighh

yday was an eye opener lahh. it seems, when we think of ourselves as the less fortunate, there are still others who are in much worse situations. i myself, would like to help out at anyways, but it seems, there is nth much i can do at the moment or if there is smthg i could do, would they accept my help. u knw?? its hard..other ppl too have plans of which we may not interfere with. i am in no position to actually alter their plans what more say change or improve them at all. i guess in the end, i might have to let go on "my part" of plans if the other party seems firm on what they are doing.

chances. i think i may have lost my chance last year in doing something i should have and wanted to do. but it seems hard. i have no clue in getting back on "track". sighhh im waiting for another opportunity but time seems to be against me, besides a few other factors. even if there might an opportunity, i'll prefer to wait and make sure that "things are actually what it seems to be". so its hard lahh...i think i should just "hang around" n see how things go. its hard being me.

so i guess i'll work hard lahh n see if things turn out what i would like to be. n wait for the right time and chance. like i said, it all seems blurry now. double sigh.

i am no ready to let go. yet..so i'll wait.

ehh helloo??

i think i'll be sticking to blogger rather than tumblr. but i'll post somethings up there too laa hahaha

so yday was kinda fun lahh...getting to hang out with alan n alf. bloody 4 months since i saw alf lahh haha so we hung out mostly doing shopping lah. n i bought quite a few ahh haha din know damansara was actually damn posh but nice lahh...hung out at the curve, one utama n a few places b4 we got back to watch movie hahah so few hours lah we walked. i got myself a pair of jeans btw hahaaha

n today, i'll prolly drop by pavilion b4 goin back lahh..see if there's anything to get there. hahha

ohh...the search for the t.u. miserably failed. wtff but i did find the book the lost symbols by dan brown lahh...hahahaha

yday's convo

me: eh time to go.
alan: kk
me: u staying over ah?
alan: yeah y??
me: wher's ur baju?
alan: later buy lah

LATER BUY LAHH hahaha till then...

love compasion and kindness

i have a friend, who has taught me a really good value. PATIENCE. n how is that?? mamal, the special friend of mine has actually been consistently "off-timed". so yalah...bearing with his timely arrivals, i learned the value of PATIENCE. n yes i can say that i am very PATIENT!!!! hahahahaha

im got my hair done today. n im not BALD eve!! hahaha i got a trim at the barber! been ages since i went to barbers hahaha was outta money mahh haha at first i had doubts lahh but he old dude turned out to be really damn good hahahha cos i had special hair mahh so he said something bout my hair so i find him good lahh hahahahhahaha in the end, i turned out pleased with my hair lahh hahaha i feel so much lk a gentleman =)))))

did i tell u, i have started to play games. again. all i can do is wonder how my crops are doing and when can i harvest them. n if my food at my cafe is done. or the layout of my cafe. hahah thanks to eunice lahh!! funny girl LOL she was playing it and all so yalah. being kinda obsessed with it she talks bout the game hahahaha yday i literally had nth to do so i tried out the game lahh.. n now like dat that lahh...im even playing those facebook games at work lol

ep4 of gossip girl season 3 is out! n hilary duff is in it!! hahahahahahaha she went from chubby to skinny and back to chubby hahahah n she's chubby cute hahahah but then again. she cant beat serena!! hahahah oh S!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

ohhhh ya, daddy said he was proud of me earlier this morning!! hahaha he said i had the 3 above =D

Amaranth

so far since friday, things turned sour. hehhh..dun wanna talk bout it lahh.

then again, i changed my digi plan to digi campus. darn cheap wehhh.. u can like make call n text so cheap, its hard to actually use the credit up. unless u actually talk otp lahh lol so yalah...switch now ahh. the offer to actually keep ur old number but use the new plan is until this month only. dat day, i actually brought my passport n ic to do the damn thing hahaha but its worth it lahh everyone seems to be fnf-s. haha

ohh. i went for a jog yday. 2 rounds. den close edi bah the place. healthy ryte?? hahahaha but i managed to jog like half a round and walk the rest hahahahahahahaha then after jogging, akid n i went to watch adruce at boulevard cos a few of them went to audition for the twisties bingit. so this twisties bingit is actually a competition similar to malaysian idol lahh..so wad they do is have people audition solos. n then they pick the good ones and put them into bands. so there would be guitar, bass, drum, vocals and even piano. so yalahhh..adruce and the few others joined.

so i got there in time to watch adruce's audition. damn nervous he was. u could see from the way he talk n stood. so he did wad he had to do, played the guitar and answered a few questions and nailed it lah. he was among 3-4 only chosen to go KL right away. meaning to say, he kinda skipped those petty stages lahh hahaha so he got it lahh hahaha so did his bro adeeb playing the bass. both got to go kl lahh but sad case, their parents wont allow them cos of their studies.

then there's another acquaintance of mine, in our group of friends lah but i sure as hell forgot his name. but they call him awie for i dunno wad reason hahaha he nailed it too!! was sent to go kl straight but he dint want too!! he said he joined just to hear critics. wtf ryte hahaha cos he's actually playing in a band edi. n doesnt wanna leave lahh but he was told he had a bright future being a secessionist hahaha even after he already decided not to go, the judges actually gave him another chance by asking him to pick the guitar IF he wanted to go at all. but he DIDNT!! hahaha damn cool oso lahh the way he rejected the offer hahah

and thennnnnnnn, another friend of ours sopie, awie's band mate in another band auditioned. we all knew he would be sent off to kl even before he startded auditioning cos he was dat good!! he already started shredding the guitar when adjusting the amps. wtfffff.. so yalah he auditioned and rocked the stage lahh..kinda shocked and thrilled the judges. plus when he auditioned, he was so clam and all. hahha he asked to audition for the bass and guitar and the judges asked him wad he was better at. he said both haha wtff. he could actually play the piano and drums too wehhhh!!! i've seen him!! so the judges came to the decision and said he could go.but due to age requirements he couldnt. he just joined the damn thing for fun hahahaha min age was 18 and he was 17. so yalahh.. damn cool situation. one of the judge even saluted him. and told him if he joined again next year, he need nt audition at all. hahahahhaha

so u see....sad case huh?? 4 talents asked to go kl for the next stage but cant or dun wan at all. sayang2. oh did u know, jenk, within our group of friends joined last year and actually won. so dats y it inspired the rest to join too...

so now we all know that kuching alone, wad more to say sarawak has really good musicians!!!! and its a sad case the music scene is dull here. so yalahh...my friends and i will keep trying to keep it alive lahh..in the future, after adruce's exams, we'll both have more events at saddad. hopefully and prolly do something bigger.

till then. take care people!!

oh... shud i keep my hair or cut it short or just trim it lightly?? hahahahhahaha

i rock socks and u dont haha

i feel sorry for my blog cos its feeling deprived hahahaha SORRY LAAAA... too busy ba hahaha

been kinda busy lately. from waking up early in the morning to help dad at work. to setting up meetings. to thinking and meeting again till late at night. i hardly have the time to actually play. sigh. but then again, its all fun lahh hahah cos its fun enough working with friends! =) then besides working, i'll be with the usual people, lazing at mcd, staying there refilling our drinks till late. just routine stuff lahh..sigh. n routine stuff is boring!!

oh!! i started goin to the gym! hahaha gossip girls motivated me in a way lahh.. hahaha in 6 mths tabloids will be rumoring a chace crawford in kch HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA mayb lahh haha. neways, been goin to the gym with piz mal n niq. since last thurs lahh..n we went 3 time dy. so our body's actually aching from muscle pain haha n i swear, i actually feel the muscle growing hahahahaha

then again, there's the segi prom. last prom i went to was BL's prom. so yeah..soooo wanna go lahh lol i just dunno wad to wear only haha who wanna be my date?? HAHA!!

Florence and The Machine

im sooooo hooked on this band!! thanks to D!!! <3 its seriously darn good cos it has a lil of everything from blues, to jazz to rock to pop to electro. damn cool ehh...plus their songs sounds somewhat "motivating", "inspiring" and "relaxing" at the same time.. lk the kinda songs u can listen to from the movies hahaha

here's the deal again.

1stly raya was a blast. meeting everyone for long hours till late at nite was really fun. except for someone lahhhh. helped out during mamal's open house too this year. n followed his family around for visiting. n we stopped by tun rahman's place. kinda cool experience lahh..i kena history lecture from him summore lol besides that, did alot of visiting to friends' houses n pretty enjoyed a few of them especially dd's and adruce's =)



then again, there's something else i wanna say. wher's the point of putting my effort when i dun see yours. makes sense ryte. if wanna meet, meet lah, dun come up with reasons saying u'll see lah and all. at this point, i dun reli care if we even meet at all anymore. its seems ur mocking me. i ask myself if u have brains at times. grow up wehhhhh

unpublished posts

since last month. just so u know, i have i stack of unpublished post that i resent from publishing haha

here's the deal

again. i've been slacking. reli late nights and late mornings. had intended to follow my dad to work today but it kinda din work out. had my alarm set at 7 but ended up waking at 9.30. i got it all screwed up and i need the cash real bad. i have been procrastinating much lately, postponing everything to the week after. and when it's due, i postpone it again.

here's the deal. imma start wroking tmr. boring onot i will. for the money n to keep my mind off unnecessary stuff. i haven got a plan, but i got an idea. i cant slack no more. there's so much i wanna say, but i guess its better off if i keep it to myself. like usual. that's y im quite pretty much. bye fuckers

greetings from my escapade =|

i caught a plane to kl earlier this fri. din actually catch the plane cos i missed the damn flight. so i got on the next flight and got my ass to kl. not actually kl lah but nilai haha spent most of my time here n it was a blast. had a blast here and i honestly dun feel lk goin home. had reli good talks with alan. all the poret and shit. so it was good lah

then again, it was quite a depressing trip.
1. i missed my flight to kl
2. lost my phone
3. my dad did not know i was in kl, n i kantoi-ed
4. i missed my flight back to kch

wtf ryte??

bout no.2, i lost my se at the ktm over sentral. mcb. its bloody pack dat time so some ass pick-pocketed me lahh..din reli feel down tho hehe cos i kinda felt it was high time i got myself another phone not becos i wanted too, but becos i had too. camera aint working, the joystick ain reli working, the speakers aint working, the cover's fucked up. so yalah. whoever took the phone must could have felt pissed cos he cant reli do much with it. even to sell it, i think if he did, the shop even pay him to keep the phone hahahaha!!! so yalah, downside's that i gotta spill cash to get myself another phone..sighhh

bout my kantoi thing with my dad, i told him i was heading for damai for the weekends and merdeka too lah. so yalah...he called everyday since he was concerned. and worst, he brought food up to damai without letting me know. then he had to wait. so he called and called. i finally answered. then he told me he was waiting at the lobby with food so asked me to pick it up. MCB i tell u. i felt fucking bad. so i told him the truth and all. said i was sorry. but still lahh....i cud have felt how he actually might have felt!! him sending the food there, to me telling him im actually at kl. gosh...he must have felt bloody disappointed n sad ehh...worst still, when i called him again, he wasnt angry at all.....that made me felt even worst!! so yalahh....kinda blew my day. sigh. im sure it gonna get damn weird when i get back

but then again. after everything, when i missed my flight last night, i suddenly had a feeling of not goin back. still. even now, i dun feel lk it. hehhhh.....im in the departure hall btw. n it just started to rain really badly. till then, chaooooo~ sighhhh...