roses really smell like boo boo booooo

im stuck back home on a Sunday noon. was bout to go out when dad HAD to go out. hahaha so i guess i'll blog. i got my bro n sis to clean the car earlier. not exactly clean but to clear out everything. i was planning to send the car for cleaning :) guess it was bout time the car had a cleaning. last i could remember cleaning the car was a month or 2 back??? HAHAHA dirty piece of shit i tell u!! hahah

SADDAD's Fusion was a blast + success last night. although turn up wasn pleasing on fri but it sure was good last night. they say a good gig is when u get the traffic jammed and to have the cops arrive to stop the gig. BOTH happened!! AHAHAHAHHAAHHAHA so i guess it was good?? lol so this SADDAD's Fusion thing will be on every Saturdays after rainfest onwards :) so its a good place for people to sow their talents lah. n yes i have been getting free food for the past few days!! good food summore!! =D so do drop by n tell your friends bout SADDAD's Fusion.

i've been working pretty much lately, i haven't got much time for myself n even my friends. or some of them. it seems with my "hanging out" hours, its rather hard to hang out with 1 or 2 of them. n it seems they are reluctant to do so. effort betch. effort. wher's it????

n no, i have no seen transformers. expensive oi. im saving really hard for my trip to kl. bout that trip, i think im cancelling bali. prolly gonna check out some other beaches lk redang pangkor or langkawi. then again. i still dunno ehh.

till then, ive got assignments. hehhhhh..........

oh yes, i said it

this week seem interesting to me. so far, so good. been feeling a good vibe of good things to happen. n it has been dat way.

so i've been called up to help organize a humble event for SADDAD. things are going quite well. although its kinda last minute. seems that, Uncle Saddad wants this event thing to carry on every week. so i guess its good in many ways lah. it benifits SADDAD court, kuching's music scene and of cos me HAHAHA im back in the game baby!!

studies. i find my moral studies quite interesting. but its taking up too much of my time. making some other things quite impossible. is it possible to take the subject somewhere else n come back n claim my diploma??

rainfest. H1N1 is a bitch. even now, im not too sure of goin. BUT then again, parents are prolly leaving for kl that very weekend. so u noe lahh....im sooooo gona partay!!!

st3's fest is this saturday. dad bought rm50 worth of tickets earlier n gave it to me. of cos lah i took it!! hahaha this prolly had to do with the conversation my dad, aunts and i had during bfast. HAHAHAHA so the scouting begins?? rofl!!!

then again there's assignments to do. although its only moral, i've been waiting to get my book before i start doing any of it.

futsal has been an addiction lately hahahaha i feel healthier by the week =)

i said wad i wanted to n i meant it. there's a time whereby there's obligations we need to follow up to. u understand? life isn't as simple as 123s and abc's. it may feel so dat way, but may it be as such in the future?? we gotta start thinking. of things. bout everything except for wad's holding us back. such things only deserve a small thought. we shud look towards the future. if we dun get wad we want, dont hang around too long. it just aint worth the really long wait. we shud be opportunists!! take every chance we have. i learnt the hard way. i waited for 1 then 2 came by, but i still waited for 1. by the time i wanted 2, everything was gone. since then, i've been taking chances. on pretty much everything. on work mostly. but this goes as well as for almost everything.

do u deserve my time n thoughts? im gonna think otherwise if i dun see changes.

kerinduan.

a thought.

seen people work really hard?? y so? wad is that, that motivates them?? i think it is money, expectations, responsibility, pressure and passion. dats wad i think lah. thats y i would work hard lah. just a thought tho haha

have u watched victoria secret's fashion shows?? damn hot oii!! hahahaha Miranda Kerr = :) haha

23-June-09

roughly more than a week has passed. n alot happened this pass week. mat's back. so is alan. n some other things too.

dun really have much to talk bout anyways. just trying to keep the blog slightly alive.

then again, we have 2 face asses around....pretty much making me question unnecessary things....like wth is that ass trying to do? and writing this post makes me a hypocrite. so i shouldnt complain. i think. but then, there's work, n i dun have the energy for it. been pretty much up by 7.30am and sleeping around 12am. even on sundays!! besides that, i just miss hanging out till late.

n sports!!!!! futsal n squash oiii!!!!!!!!!

chivalry is dead. n the ladies killed it. =) dun say we guys never tried.

n i want a new tattoo.

fuck H1N1 people!!!! just go rainfest k? hahhaha

n bali in aug might be a no no. prolly go kl only or redang or even penang. dunno lahh....

BETCH

so a week has passed. been sleeping and waking up early this past week. good boy now. kinda helped dad at the shop, n learnt alot too. n dad's bday was on fri.

earlier, i made a trip wif my family to the hot springs. not bad eh dat place. its kinda somewher around borneo highlands, so its technically located somewher high. its kinda a ulu place with little sign boards for directions so kinda hard to go up there lahh haha so....the hot springs' actually a stream. n the water's bloody clear and cold!! much clearer than those of matang's. n parts of the stream would be oddly warm. so there would be man made rock pools to keep the warm water "around" hahaha and such rock pools would be kinda bubbly. its not that hot actually unless u sit at the air hole for a period of time. hahaha we cooked eggs in the sand oii!!!! hahahaha dats how hot it is hahaha so yeah....kinda a nice place to go. if ur kinda bored and are already running out of ideas to hang out at kuching haha

loads of these butterflies around ehhh

the rock pool. n dad.

finally, urs trully =) hahahahhaa

oh....moral class seemed to be what i unexpected it to be. i could say its gonna be the most interesting subject for my whole diploma course hahaha

chao chao!! work work!!! money money money!!!!!!!

1 or 2? a or b? choices again...

i'll never stop

My holidays are over...i think.. imma gonna start helpin my dad at the shop starting tmr. early nights and morning for me till who noes when. haha bout time i start doing that tho. or id feel like ah seng with a house to stay in, a car to drive, frens to hang out wif and UNconstant pocket money hahaha

played futsal on fri. surprisingly, i enjoyed it. almost fainted tho hahaha i have that dizzy2 thing goin on when i over-workout hahahaha

kayak was suppose to be today. apparently somebody's bloody mary visited at the right time of the month!! HAHA!!! however, i got to hang out wif qids. FINALLY. that betch. been staying over at her aunts wif numerous "malas to go out lah" excuses hahhaha plus her pinches and chest punches. mayb i'll give her a chest punch of my own n finish it wif a boob grab HOHOHO

Please call me back.

till then...nights =)

Posers n hypocrites

as much a hypocrite we all are, just dont make it obvious lah. dumb ass.

we choose what to feel. wad to get. wad to say. dats y we have thoughts. in a case of a sad situation that we choose to feel otherwise, some may call it denial. but i dont. wads the point of being sad causing misery in ourselves? we have a choice. a choice to feel otherwise. a choice to be happy. its all in our head people!!!!!

wad we feel, is wad we want to feel. all made up by us. our thoughts. same goes to wad we wanna do, wad we want and our desires and all those BS. so yeah....its all in our head. the attachment and detachment. whether we want it or not. or if we chose for it to be or not. choices choices choices......

you and i. are like oil and water.

gawai isnt dat bad after all. wad is, is the wall i see, the barrier i feel of the people around me. pretty much nth to worry bout.

racism. still exists. unintentionally.

been to the beach pretty much over the past few days. did a lil kayaking yday. last i done dat was in primary 6. fun n cheap. good way to take a girl out on a date hahahaha

guts. is not wad i really have. depending on wad im to do, want to or suppose to.

lately, i've been feeling weird pains. on my chest. the left to be exact. kinda hurts when i take a deep breath or stretch. =S

if u dun want, someone else wud.

i am sexy ;) hahaha