blahs....its 2.40am. im stuck here at akid's place cos i aint go a ride back. mal sure as hell doesn wanna go back anytime soon cos we all know y huh?? next time i go out, im most prolly gonna bring my own car. dammits....
i've been kinda neglecting my studies of which i should be doing. exam's on tues of goodness sake!! i noe i cant screw up especially now when im so close to finishing my diploma but we all cant help if we're just procrastinate a lil bit huh??
questions and thought has been running through my head lately. and its killing me. but its been a while since i've been having random thoughts so i guess its quite alright.
dad told me yday that he felt annoyed when his eldest bro was sleeping and waking up late hours. and felt the same way again when my eldest cousin was doing the same thing. now he's fucking annoyed when his son IS doing it. he then asked me WHY couldn i just sleep and wake up at normal hours?? i din answer him at all....but i did have an answer!!! I JUST DONT HAvE ANYTHING THING TO WAKE UP IN THE MORNING TO/FOR!!! if id wake up early, what am i to do?? if i had told him dat, i have a rough idea of what he would have me through...n im sure i wont like it!! n im glad i din tell him!! HAHA...wise move i must say??
but i figured of thing that would make me wake up early!! the use of the car for the day, breakfast with frens, having told so the day b4 or even class. wad those these have in common?? >>needs and expectations, thus comes the motivation for me to wake up early. So, daddy, please gimme some sort of motivation of doing so. a pay for helpin out at the shop would do just fine. at least its some sort of expectation and a motivation!!
patience is a virtue, they say. as true and stupid as it is, i am very patient. im tired of being patient cos, NOW when i look at it, patience is indeed a virtue but it sure as hell make u look like a FOOL!! 3 more weeks i'll wait. 3 more weeks i'll feel like a fool. than thats bout. but we'll see how it goes then...or mayb i'll continue being patient. as least i know what i want dammit...
oh, i make a visit to villa aidid (if that's how it's spelt) ealier this noon. din seem as scary as it is during visits at night. house seemed big outside but rather cramped inside.
niq said i was expensive love. hahahaha true i must say LOL
religion....history.....what does this 2 have in common?? the way i look at them, both are something people are told to believe. its all made up by those "big" people to somehow make people believe what they want the people to believe. makes sense?? what bout the other side of the story?? both religion and history has both sides of the story we all should listen to. and yes, we are merely just listening to 1 side. common people!!! try doing some research...dun just follow blindy..as offensive this may sound, prove to me if Jesus or Prophet Mohammad actually connected or communicated with God. to me its all wad people was told to believe for ages. u may tell me its written in the Bible or Quran that it is, but, think about it. how true can the Quran n Bible be?? both are written by men. n men have desires and needs!! it may have been some how been altered or whatever. think bout it. things like this should be discussed openly. and no, im not questioning your faith. id respect whatever religionthere is. but just think bout it!! people ask me y i dun have a religion. gime a solid proof. then i'll consider religion. this is pretty much bout religion aint it??
we live paradoxical lives dont u think? we live lives at which we have decisions to make at everytime. decisions of which all has their goods and bads. so which one do we make? me make the best decision, at least that we think it is the best.
people....we meet> friends we make> get fond of them> look forward to seeing them> contact them often> a slack?> turns stale> quite boring> lame> annoying> then silence... goes like this most of the time. how nice it would be if it werent like that??
UHHH....i have more too say....but it'll all seem pretty obvious...go figure!! nuff said....its 4am. goodnight.
